The Awakening

... now everything's clear. i've held it in for so long... all bottled up within the very depths of my soul. how i lived you. how i breathed you. how you haunted my every dream. how you're everywhere, all over the place. how you're everything and everything is you. and never, not even once, did i ask for it all to stop. NEVER.

all i ever really wanted was to let you know. all i ever really wanted was to tell you.

and i never realized, until i did it, that it was all i ever had to do to stop it.

just like that.

i don't know why, or how, but it just did.

and why wouldn't it, when you've just bared your whole soul to one person, only to have that person tread on it without acknowledgment. without a care, that he's just walked on somebody's soul?

and the thinnest thread i've been holding on to was broken.

what's lost is gone.

and it is with gratitude that i accept it.

what's past is past.

and with all my heart, with all my mind, and with all my soul, i'm thankful for the present.

i don't even worry about the future. i'll get there when i do.

and i'll see you when i see you.

or maybe i won't.

- TAKEN FROM Letters to the Ice

The Ice Is Melting...

you should've let it melt eons ago. i don't know why you kept in the freezer.

what were you thinking, reliving his memory after all these years?

why do you dwell on your happy moments with him, when all he ever remembers you for is all the hardships he's gone through with you when you were together?

how can you still care for him, when he doesn't even want to be your friend?

how can you want him, when he can't accept you for who you really are?

why can't you forget him, when he doesn't even remember you now?

how can you say he's the best you ever had, when you still have your whole life ahead of you???

why share your dreams with him, when all he's ever done is step on them?

why cry, when he didn't even care to see you smile?

why bare your soul, when he never really saw you for half the person you really are?

why try to be honest, when all he's ever done is avoid your honesty?

why care, when he doesn't?

how can you want to be there for him now, when he doesn't even need you?

how can you want to be there for him now, when he was never ever there for you?

how can you still love him, when he has long ago forgotten you?

the ice is melting.....

so let it.

- taken from Letters to Diego's Mother